20th February 2008 09h12 central mountain time

I have been sober for 4 days.
No booze.
No drugs.
No porn.
No tobacco.
No gambling.

The thrill of maybe is not a site about recovery although I am trying to recover and the thrill of maybe is about me.

Work is a mess. Emotions are all over the place. Relationship is cracking under the strain of my sicknesses (more apropos than illnesses) Finances are screwed up.
And when I wake, I am upset that I find myself inside my skin
where things hurt
and stars whizz on by

this is my pregnancy
and on August 17, 2008,
I will be reborn.
Be there.