I have become monstrous.
no. Better: I have become a monster.
I am alone. Alone. A L O N E .
And it is all because of who I am.

I need help now.

I also want a cold beer. Or one of the cooler things. I go from crying to utter rage pretty quickly. This is a good time for DETOX. Not for returning to work.
Confused.
I am.