"Relapse is part of recovery."

OK fine.
So should I just be happy that this time I only spent 100$ fucking myself up.
Or should I go for the jugular and feel horrified that the thing ain't fixed yet.
I was in a strange land with similar characters.
I fell.
Here are the reasons why fucking myself up is a bad idea:
(they can pretty much be summed up under the general banner of feeling shitty.
-sinus infection
-gamble away hard earned money
-compulsive masturbation
-erratic and boundless sexual availability
-sleep deprivation
-wasted time
-headache
-irritability
The good side:
That little sparkle of something when just the right amount of dopamine kicks in.